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Saturday, October 24, 2009
Hi babies!
It's 2.45am now and I am stopping my Gossip Girl Marathon.
I only completed 6 out of the 25 episodes.
It's freaking addictive. I dont want to stop. But we are going to kidnap little jakeybear tomorrow at 9am so I have to stop.
I was supposed to start my marathon at 1pm when i got home from school but i ended up watching Oprah and sleeping and then I had to get ready and go out for Ah Dniu's 58th birthday dinner. Dinner was lovely. I had fun. It was fucking hot. We ate at Jumbo but there were no seats inside so we sat outside by the river. Niice.
Oh and OMG. Today i was a complete loser. While walking out of school to the bus stop my bus had already arrived but i was like fuck it, im not running (because my boobs will hit my face) So twinkle and I sat at the bus stop and she took the bus to go to Botanical Gardens while I waited for 985. Dayna and Heidi came along and sat beside me. I was talking to Dayna and totally didn't see the next 985 pass me. Was damn angry. hahahahahaha. But after that i talked to Zac and Gerard. Zac asked me if i wanted to go to Burger Shacks with him and his friend. I said I had twenty cents. HAHAHAHA.
Anyway during dinner just now I told my aunt's family about the break up. This is a first for me. The reactions that I have been getting from friends and family are crazy and worlds apart.
Justine, val and jiejie lydia were so happy. (and neh neh)
My popo doesn't believe it.
Kumar was sad and she gave me the greatest advice and also told me to make sure i know what im doing because Josh has really done alot for me.
My mum was very worried about Josh and how he's taking it. My dad was worried about me and he said maybe next time we could get back.
Parveena and a few others were heart broken. (i know, she is so cute) I was the one who had to comfort Par in the end. HAHAHAHAHA
I find it very annoying that my cousins are actually happy... IDK it's like they never understood how much he meant to me or something. But I know thats not it because i was happy when andrew and justine broke up even though she was mad upset about it.
As for me, I know I haven't been saying much about the break up. I know it's very sudden to most. And i cant confirm that I know what I am doing. So far I have more or less been okay. Haven't really given it much thought. I need more time to sort out things, to get over him.
I hope you guys don't think I am now faking the happy. Because I'm not. For some reason I am not really affected. I don't know why either. which is why i need more time. Maybe cos Josh and I gradually lost it, maybe cos I'm unconsciously throwing away my feelings.
One side of me is excited about what the future holds
The other side of me makes me want to take out my heart so I will never love or hurt again.
I know that when it hits me, it's going to be pretty bad. Josh meant the world to me. But when it happens I will call 911 (aka Justine and Vallo) who will come with ice cream for me. Love.
Ps thank you for all the condolence notes, smses, hugs. HAHAH.
It's 2.45am now and I am stopping my Gossip Girl Marathon.
I only completed 6 out of the 25 episodes.
It's freaking addictive. I dont want to stop. But we are going to kidnap little jakeybear tomorrow at 9am so I have to stop.
I was supposed to start my marathon at 1pm when i got home from school but i ended up watching Oprah and sleeping and then I had to get ready and go out for Ah Dniu's 58th birthday dinner. Dinner was lovely. I had fun. It was fucking hot. We ate at Jumbo but there were no seats inside so we sat outside by the river. Niice.
Oh and OMG. Today i was a complete loser. While walking out of school to the bus stop my bus had already arrived but i was like fuck it, im not running (because my boobs will hit my face) So twinkle and I sat at the bus stop and she took the bus to go to Botanical Gardens while I waited for 985. Dayna and Heidi came along and sat beside me. I was talking to Dayna and totally didn't see the next 985 pass me. Was damn angry. hahahahahaha. But after that i talked to Zac and Gerard. Zac asked me if i wanted to go to Burger Shacks with him and his friend. I said I had twenty cents. HAHAHAHA.
Anyway during dinner just now I told my aunt's family about the break up. This is a first for me. The reactions that I have been getting from friends and family are crazy and worlds apart.
Justine, val and jiejie lydia were so happy. (and neh neh)
My popo doesn't believe it.
Kumar was sad and she gave me the greatest advice and also told me to make sure i know what im doing because Josh has really done alot for me.
My mum was very worried about Josh and how he's taking it. My dad was worried about me and he said maybe next time we could get back.
Parveena and a few others were heart broken. (i know, she is so cute) I was the one who had to comfort Par in the end. HAHAHAHAHA
I find it very annoying that my cousins are actually happy... IDK it's like they never understood how much he meant to me or something. But I know thats not it because i was happy when andrew and justine broke up even though she was mad upset about it.
As for me, I know I haven't been saying much about the break up. I know it's very sudden to most. And i cant confirm that I know what I am doing. So far I have more or less been okay. Haven't really given it much thought. I need more time to sort out things, to get over him.
I hope you guys don't think I am now faking the happy. Because I'm not. For some reason I am not really affected. I don't know why either. which is why i need more time. Maybe cos Josh and I gradually lost it, maybe cos I'm unconsciously throwing away my feelings.
One side of me is excited about what the future holds
The other side of me makes me want to take out my heart so I will never love or hurt again.
I know that when it hits me, it's going to be pretty bad. Josh meant the world to me. But when it happens I will call 911 (aka Justine and Vallo) who will come with ice cream for me. Love.
Ps thank you for all the condolence notes, smses, hugs. HAHAH.
shake me. 2:42 AM.
