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Saturday, March 7, 2009
Today korkor and i were walking to botak jones for dinner when he asked me about what my friends said when they found out i was dating someone 9 years older.
So i said. they said omg seriously? omg! and they were very shocked.
and he said, thats all?
and he continued on to say, i tell you ah, when i tell my friends that you're dating someone ten years older they are like WHAT THE FUCK? you never beat him up ah.
and so i just kept quiet because i didnt know how to respond.
but after much deep thought, this is what i have to say.
I am not in a frickin world of my own. I do understand that i cannot just fully lay my heart out on a silver platter for someone who is 9 years older without understanding that although this seems really beautiful and that i am damn happy now this could all just be a lie. And that josh could have some ulterior motive. I do understand that i have to always becareful and i do understand all the gossip that is going on behind my back. But you know what, it has been FUCKING ten months so get over it. Just because your friends say what the fuck so im supposed to just say goodbye to josh? like, no i dont think so. if all their reactions are what the fuck then stop telling them lah, moron. Obviously now because i am in a relationship i commit myself fully to josh and i think hes really really wonderful and all but i know that there's still a high possibility that we will break up in the end, due to differences along the way and whatnot. it's not like evrything now is so lovey dovey and fucking fun. We still fight over things like normal couples do and shit. so what the fuck man, it's been ten months already, just get over it can. If it works out between josh and i then yay, fuck you all. and if it doesnt then too bad lah, i will just learn from my mistakes, like every other relationship that i have been in. FUCKING critical you know some people.
and dont think that it is damn fun and that i am doing it to be cool or whatever lah, please.
in the beginning my own cousin (hi vallo) while bitching about me having a 9 year older bf to my other cousin (hi jussy) accidentally sent me the message and she said the only reason why im with josh is because 1) im a gold digger 2) im desperate and a whole load of bull. I mean, think about it lah, they are like my two favourite people in the world. I cried like shit after that. Josh and i went through (and are still going through hell) for being together. I'm happy now, and thats all that matters as long as i dont do anything seriously stupid. like even if josh does something devastatingly bad to me, i still wont regret being with him now. i know me dating a guy who is 9 years older is a huge deal, like even i think im crazy. but really, its been such awhile already. we've proved that we're serious (at least more serious than i've been with previous boyfriends) Even my parents have gotten over it so you should to. SO what the fuck man. enough is enough just fuck off ok.
So i said. they said omg seriously? omg! and they were very shocked.
and he said, thats all?
and he continued on to say, i tell you ah, when i tell my friends that you're dating someone ten years older they are like WHAT THE FUCK? you never beat him up ah.
and so i just kept quiet because i didnt know how to respond.
but after much deep thought, this is what i have to say.
I am not in a frickin world of my own. I do understand that i cannot just fully lay my heart out on a silver platter for someone who is 9 years older without understanding that although this seems really beautiful and that i am damn happy now this could all just be a lie. And that josh could have some ulterior motive. I do understand that i have to always becareful and i do understand all the gossip that is going on behind my back. But you know what, it has been FUCKING ten months so get over it. Just because your friends say what the fuck so im supposed to just say goodbye to josh? like, no i dont think so. if all their reactions are what the fuck then stop telling them lah, moron. Obviously now because i am in a relationship i commit myself fully to josh and i think hes really really wonderful and all but i know that there's still a high possibility that we will break up in the end, due to differences along the way and whatnot. it's not like evrything now is so lovey dovey and fucking fun. We still fight over things like normal couples do and shit. so what the fuck man, it's been ten months already, just get over it can. If it works out between josh and i then yay, fuck you all. and if it doesnt then too bad lah, i will just learn from my mistakes, like every other relationship that i have been in. FUCKING critical you know some people.
and dont think that it is damn fun and that i am doing it to be cool or whatever lah, please.
in the beginning my own cousin (hi vallo) while bitching about me having a 9 year older bf to my other cousin (hi jussy) accidentally sent me the message and she said the only reason why im with josh is because 1) im a gold digger 2) im desperate and a whole load of bull. I mean, think about it lah, they are like my two favourite people in the world. I cried like shit after that. Josh and i went through (and are still going through hell) for being together. I'm happy now, and thats all that matters as long as i dont do anything seriously stupid. like even if josh does something devastatingly bad to me, i still wont regret being with him now. i know me dating a guy who is 9 years older is a huge deal, like even i think im crazy. but really, its been such awhile already. we've proved that we're serious (at least more serious than i've been with previous boyfriends) Even my parents have gotten over it so you should to. SO what the fuck man. enough is enough just fuck off ok.
shake me. 8:08 PM.
